Help my Unbelief
At the risk of sounding negative, I am about to share my heart and some honesty in this post. Yes, I love the Lord. Yes, I have a wonderful husband. Yes, I have great kids. Yes, I have a great job. Yes, I am very thankful for everything God has done in my life. . . . . . Now comes the negative and honest part . . . . 2017 has been difficult. I’ve struggled with loneliness, jealousy, bitterness, discouragement, anger, doubt, and the list could go on but I will spare of you of many sins. The highlight of 2017 was probably my mission trip to Nicaragua. I came back from that trip with such hope. I saw God work in amazing ways and I felt like He was leading in a couple of different areas. However neither of these things has worked out and it’s been very discouraging. It’s not that I didn’t get what I wanted, it’s that I thought God was leading me to do some things and opening some doors but the outcome has not been what I expected. Those doors seem to be closing. Maybe I just thought ...